It’s been a year now. Some days are better than others, but I still think of you. Sometimes I wish that I could have an “eternal sunshine of the spotless mind” moment and just forget, but I know that I wouldn’t want to forget everything. I am still so angry and I’m also mad at myself for still feeling this way. How am I ever going to trust someone again after you did such a horrible thing to me? And then to just act like I never existed for those five years, like I never shared your life and helped you raise your daughter. Now I’m nothing to you both. I know that I’ll meet someone eventually and that that person will treat me how I deserve to be treated. I also know that being happy is the best revenge. This is why I should have lost my virginity at 16 instead of 24…heartbreak is easier to deal with when you’re younger.