Yesterday when I said you’re both special, I meant it. You two are best friends, and I think I love both of you. You are my boyfriend, my best friend, the father of my child (granted that was an accident) and I know you love me very much, so why won’t you just marry me already? I will wait for you for eternity, I know I will. So why am I all of a sudden feeling so confused? Why am I feeling things for your best friend? Maybe it’s because I see how much more responsible he is than you, how much more he cares about things… Maybe because I see that he would handle things so much more differently than you… Because I think that he would have married me a long time ago if it was him. Don’t worry, nothing will ever happen between us, I’ll never tell anyone I love him, I’ll never leave you – it would hurt too much.
I just needed you to know somehow that this is how I’m feeling.