• You, just you (you never liked your real name anyway)

    by  • July 5, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, The Ex • 0 Comments

    I’ve always been confused about my feelings, it’s in my nature.

    We were together for some time. You said you loved me, and I believe that you meant it. For a time, I loved you too. You said that you never, ever wanted to let me go. You didn’t. I let you go.

    I began to see us more as friends. You wanted to know why I was acting weird, why I was upset. I could never lie to you. We talked it through. We both cried. Then we met again as friends, I thought I was okay.

    It’s a month later and I’ve just found out you have someone new.

    I never really thought that far ahead. I never really thought of you having someone else. Hugging them, kissing them, telling them, ‘I love you. Forever. I never, ever want to let you go. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me’.

    I thought it would take you over a month to get over me. I was stupid.

    So I’ve been crying for some time now, it’s finally hit me that you’ll never say that to me again.

    I dumped you, I have no right to be this upset. I assume that you’re happy, that should make me happy. But it doesn’t.

    I’d like to talk this through with you, but I don’t want it to become even more awkward between us.

    I’d also like to apologise for hurting you the way I think I did.

    Last of all, I’d like to ask, can we just talk more? Please? I miss talking to you, even if it is just as friends.

    From, your ex.

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