I’ve always been confused about my feelings, it’s in my nature.
We were together for some time. You said you loved me, and I believe that you meant it. For a time, I loved you too. You said that you never, ever wanted to let me go. You didn’t. I let you go.
I began to see us more as friends. You wanted to know why I was acting weird, why I was upset. I could never lie to you. We talked it through. We both cried. Then we met again as friends, I thought I was okay.
It’s a month later and I’ve just found out you have someone new.
I never really thought that far ahead. I never really thought of you having someone else. Hugging them, kissing them, telling them, ‘I love you. Forever. I never, ever want to let you go. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me’.
I thought it would take you over a month to get over me. I was stupid.
So I’ve been crying for some time now, it’s finally hit me that you’ll never say that to me again.
I dumped you, I have no right to be this upset. I assume that you’re happy, that should make me happy. But it doesn’t.
I’d like to talk this through with you, but I don’t want it to become even more awkward between us.
I’d also like to apologise for hurting you the way I think I did.
Last of all, I’d like to ask, can we just talk more? Please? I miss talking to you, even if it is just as friends.
From, your ex.