• Never again.

    by  • July 5, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Cheating • 1 Comment

    I was the one that was here for you no matter what and waited for you while you were off living your dream. I was ok with only getting to talk to you once at the end of every day and only getting to see you once a month. I waited for you. I knew what i was getting myself into from the beginning. I knew how long it was going to be in between each time we saw each other. I knew it would have a toll on our relationship. I was perfect while you were gone. I told you everything. I cared for you. I planned my day around when i would get to talk to you. I made it easy for you because i knew you were busy and didn’t have a lot of time for me and i understood that. You told me that no matter what happens over the next year while you were gone all the times you would come to visit and at the end of your time away you would come back to me. You promised and I believed you. I changed for you, and you were so perfect to me. It was almost too good to be true. Well of course it was, you know it as well as I do.

    You left me for another girl and you broke up with me and tried to turn it all on me and make me feel like I did something wrong. You know I never did. I was the one who waited for you, remember? What i don’t understand now is why you can’t admit to me there was another girl, I already know there was i know her name and what she looks like and i have seen all the pictures, but why can’t you just say it to me? Tell me that I did nothing wrong and stop lying to yourself. How could you come home to me after being with her? Do you have a conscience? You knew what i had already been through and you know how badly i had been hurt in the past and yet you still did this to me. I loved you and trusted you and you knew it.

    This is something I’ll never say to you because your never going to give me the answer I want or deserve.

    You can’t keep hurting people it’s going to catch up with you one day.

    One Response to Never again.

    1. Audrey
      July 6, 2011 at 3:13 pm

      I got chills reading this. It sounds like my same exact situation from a little over 2 months ago. He never deserved you and one day he will realize the mistake he made, but you will have already moved on.Keep your head high, and raise that bar when you are ready to start dating again!

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