• I love you….

    by  • July 5, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 0 Comments

    We made a mistake. I fully recognize that. I was completely uncomfortable the whole time anyways. And then you kinda… disregarded my feelings… so thanks… And the thing that bothered me most was that while the thoughts in my head were along the lines of, “Run.” “Go see what those people over there are doing.” “GET AWAY.” What I said was completely different… I know I encouraged you. I was stupid. And then after, I was a mess. And you told me not to worry… Cuz no one would ever find out. Well, that’s not why I was upset. I was upset because I didn’t know where the old me went. She’s been gone since you came into my life. And after this past experience… I try to tell myself that I’m a stronger person. I like to think that. But you know… Whatever. Maybe I’m not the person I thought I was. Maybe I’ll meet other people like you who’ll trick me into thinkning they’re a nice person. When really they just wanna pull me in for my vulnerability. Maybe that’ll happen. Or maybe, I’ll prove to myself that I can really stand up for myself. And if another person like you comes up, I’ll run like hell to get away from them. I think I choose that. But look. I can say all of this nasty stuff, and I still love you. So who am I????

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