• I Cheated.

    by  • July 5, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Cheating • 2 Comments

    Yup. I cheated.
    And it slightly concerns me that I never felt bad about it…
    Perhaps it was because deep down I knew I was dating an a**hole and that you deserved it.
    Subconsciously, I thought, I was protecting myself from a heartache that would eventually come when our relationship ended (whenever that would be.)
    I figured, if I cheated and you were to dump me, at least I wouldn’t feel that I had completely given all myself to you with nothing in return.
    I didn’t expect our relationship would last 2 years and then some…

    You still don’t know…

    But I’ll never tell you.
    I’ll never tell you about all you’re friends I hooked up with.
    I’ll never tell you how I convinced myself that they treated me better.
    I’ll never tell you how used I felt.
    I’ll never tell you how unsatisfying it is.
    I’ll never admit how much I feel like a slut..

    2 Responses to I Cheated.

    1. M
      July 6, 2011 at 1:48 am

      I completely understand.

    2. Megan
      August 15, 2011 at 11:13 am

      I know exactly how you feel.

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