after everything we’ve been through, here we are. falling in love. i think. whatever this is, it’s strong, and i’m scared. i don’t want to put myself out there, i’ve been careful not to for a long time. i don’t want to get hurt. as bad as it is, the past few guys i’ve been with i didn’t have real feelings for. i mean, i made myself believe i did, but i didn’t. as soon as they got serious, i ran away.
but then you come along. i’ve had this thing for you for a long time, and we finally got the right timing, we’re finally working out, but i’m SO scared to do this. i’m scared to feel this for you. i’m scared of my own feelings. that’s so pathetic, but it’s true. i’m scared of getting hurt. but i’m also scared of just letting this go and missing out on something wonderful. i’m not sure what to do.
but to be fair to you, i know i need to figure it out one way or the other so we can do this without the scared part of me in the back of my head holding me back from it, i want to do this right, not half-assed.