A few months ago, you realized that I loved you. You asked me about it, and I lied. I lied and said that it was just a stupid crush, nothing serious. That I wasn’t hung up on you.
You told me that you valued my friendship, and that things should stay that way. But you had just entered a new relationship at that time.
Now, you’re single again. And how do I know whether the things you said were just because you had a girlfriend, or universally true?
I feel like I’m getting signals from you, but it might just be my hopeful imagination.
But, what if it’s not? And what if, by my lies, you think that I don’t care about you? What if you believed everything I said?
Never before have I wanted a lie to be found out so very badly. But I can’t tell you, because it broke my heart when you rejected me the first time. I don’t know if I can handle it again.
But know this: I do love you. You make my heart race whenever I see you, and my stomach disappear.
For once in my life, please please please let me be with the one I want.