No, No No NO NO NO! I can’t feel this way. I don’t have feelings. You make me feel so much. I fucked up, I Can’t be in a relationship where I have feelings. Do you have any clue how terrified I am? You know what makes everything worse? Her. Now it’s not me that’s stopping this. It’s her. And on top of that? in Just 2 fucking months we will have miles in between us. You’ll be in phili and I’ll still be here.
On top of everything we’ve gone back to where we were. I’m sorry I did this to you. You’re worth so much more. So much more than me, So God Damn Much More than her. No though you’re leaving, and she gets to kiss you good bye. but wait maybe I’ll kiss your fucking cheek goodbye. because did you know, I’d rather a guy kiss my nose than my lips goodbye? it’s so much sweeter, more innocent and loving, like when you kissed my forehead. and I know it’s nothing like that. but that doesn’t keep me from dreaming
But I’m going to stop my emotions. I’m heartless. I will cut you off. I will get over you. BECAUSE I AM ALLIE. I Don’t Have Emotions. I Don’t Cry. I Don’t Get Hurt..
Guess what motherfucker? The day you leave? I promise that is the end of my wait. I won’t wait a day longer. Not one. I’m getting over you
I know I am. because I know that I can. I know I’m strong.
I still love you, but for how long?