For some reason I want you to know, to just know, how I feel. I really think we have a soulmate connection, but I also know that other than our one night together years ago, we may never be together again as more than friends. At least not anytime in the near future, and maybe not even in this lifetime.
I didn’t want to feel these things, it just happened. It was beyond my control but I have known it and have been fighting it for a long time, longer than you might think. I think my soul knew before we actually met again, it knew when you walked by our table and it felt like the wind was blowing. I remember asking my now ex-husband if he felt that whenever you walked by, haha, he looked at me like I was crazy. But I know now why I felt it and I didn’t even know at the time you was the same guy from years ago that told me he felt something akin to a soulmate connection.
It is so weird how it happened, how we all became friends because of him wanting to befriend you because of your standing in the city. Technically, he is the one that brought us back into each others life and she is the one that has kept us in each others life.
Once we became friends again, we discovered who the other was, we both knew without actually telling each other we knew. But I got your hints. And the more time went by the more I was convinced that you and I have a soul connection. I can see it in your eyes, I can feel it whenever we hang out.
I know we may never be together in the way I always thought soulmates should be. If it was meant to happen, we wouldn’t be in the predicament we are in now. So there must me some lesson we are suppose to learn from each other.
It did hurt when you supposedly gave her a card telling her you thought she was your soulmate. Was that your or her way of getting back to me because of something I posted on various confession sites about my feelings? Or do you really feel that way? I think you might want to feel that with her, I want to feel it with the one I am with too, but I don’t, and I don’t think you feel it with her either.
Maybe I did learn something from you. I found God again, I found out what his love in my heart feels like.. it feels a lot like the love I feel for you in my heart. I knew you never preached to me or tried to teach me about God’s love in the verbal sense but I learned something nonetheless. This love I feel for you is pure… the same pure love I feel with God.