• Nothing At All

    by  • July 3, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 1 Comment

    I feel worthless. I feel like no one has or ever will love me. I feel like an object, an animal, a piece of trash. I truly believe that I am unwanted and not even worthy to spit on.

    When I hear people talk about bad relationships and how badly their partner can mentally abuse them, I never thought that it felt like this. I never thought it would happen to me. I guess I don’t even think it happened to me now. He never verbally assaulted me or yelled at me, he just said some things that confused me and hurt me. He just lied to me. We weren’t even in a relationship, we were just dating. Maybe we weren’t even dating. It’s all just a blur in my foggy memory. Maybe nothing even happened.

    It’s all my fault anyway. It’s always my fault.

    One Response to Nothing At All

    1. voice
      July 3, 2011 at 11:04 am

      No. I can’t tell you how often I feel this way. Today was that day for me too. I want you to know something. I don’t even know you, I have never seen you, and I know that you are beautiful. I know that you are hurting, that you hurt because you cared too much, because you actually have feelings. You don’t deserve to feel this way. You deserve so much more. I wish I could take it all away for you, that I could heal you in a moment, because I know that you are worth that. It’s not your fault.

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