I feel worthless. I feel like no one has or ever will love me. I feel like an object, an animal, a piece of trash. I truly believe that I am unwanted and not even worthy to spit on.
When I hear people talk about bad relationships and how badly their partner can mentally abuse them, I never thought that it felt like this. I never thought it would happen to me. I guess I don’t even think it happened to me now. He never verbally assaulted me or yelled at me, he just said some things that confused me and hurt me. He just lied to me. We weren’t even in a relationship, we were just dating. Maybe we weren’t even dating. It’s all just a blur in my foggy memory. Maybe nothing even happened.
It’s all my fault anyway. It’s always my fault.