Ten years ago today you died. It has been an entire decade since you have been gone, and it still hurts as much as it did the day you died. It takes my breath away. I have not had you in my life longer than I had you, and I just want you back. You have missed everything. My first love and when that love ended, my first heartbreak. You have not been there for every major birthday or holiday for the past ten years. You did not see me graduate from college a month ago. You have missed so much already, and there is so much more you are not going to be there for. I can’t help but be angry at you for leaving me. I miss you. It kills me every day I see a mother and daughter out together doing what we should be doing. We never got the chance to be friends, and I regret that every day. Dad misses you too. He will never recover. He still drinks every night until he passes out. He still wears his wedding ring. He isn’t happy, and I know it is because he misses you so much, Mom. I just want one more day with you. You were taken from me too soon. I’m not asking for much, I don’t even need a day, just five minutes. Just a moment to see you smile, to hear your contagious laugh, to smell your scent, because it is all just becoming a faded memory after all these years. I miss you and love you, Mom.
With all my love,
Your little girl