• Never be like her

    by  • July 2, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Yearning • 1 Comment

    I would do anything
    for you to look at me the way you look at her.
    With her perfect body and straight white teeth.
    She’s better than me, and she always will be.
    She isn’t smarter…or kinder…or funny in the least.
    But she’s better, because she’s beautiful
    So you value her, you want her. You’d do anything to be in her arms.
    You hang on every word she says and every word she says is more important than anything I’ll ever say.
    So I’ll try
    and I’ll try
    I’ll work out for hours, and I’ll fast.
    And I’ll take pills, and dye my hair.
    When it all becomes too much, I’ll lose control and gorge myself with food.
    I’ll eat until I’m sweating and my stomach can’t take any more.
    And then I’ll vomit it all up.
    Because if it stays inside me, I’ll never be like her.
    And if I’m never like her…
    You’ll never love me.

    One Response to Never be like her

    1. Lissa
      July 3, 2011 at 8:38 am

      Please, Please don’t ever give up on who you are just to be like someone else! Life is not meant to be perfect and you will find someone someday who loves you for the person that you are. And as I’ve come to realize, if he doesn’t love you now, he will never love you in the way that you wish…

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