It seems like this really didn’t happen, but you’ve left. I was having a hard week the week before you left, and I tried to tell you about it. But I was also upset because I couldn’t talk to you most of the nights and then I got sick and you wouldn’t see me. I understood all of that, but can you blame me for being upset? I know I was wrong for being rude to you at the party and I wonder if that’s what made all this happen? I forgot my pride, forgave you and told you I was sorry for everything. I thought everything was good after that, but then you went and left without notice. I still don’t understand and I probably never will. I still love you but you left at such a bad time and now I’m in an even worse place. I don’t know how long it will take me to get out of here and I have some hope that you’ll realize your mistake and come back; even though you said you wouldn’t. But I’m torn if I’m willing to put myself in a place again to get utterly destroyed like this again. You helped me through so much by just being there for me, listening and loving me. I pretty sure you’ll never know how much you saved me during our time together and I want to thank you for that. I believe that’s why it’s so hard to believe you don’t love me and that you don’t want to be in this relationship anymore.
It has been almost two weeks since you left but it still feels like you just said goodbye today. I love you and I hope you never forget that.