• hit the road jack

    by  • July 1, 2011 • Letting Go • 1 Comment

    I’ve just text you saying “Do you consider me as a friend? x”
    And i probably won’t get a reply
    but i just want a reply
    hopefully saying “yes why?”
    So i can bite back
    start the argument
    “So then why did you use me? Why did you tell me you had split up with her when you hadn’t? why…just why? I’m not angry, i’m not sad, i’m not upset, i’m past that.
    I just want an explanation
    of how you think you have the right
    to use me
    lie to me
    when you know what i’ve been through
    about my problems.
    I now know you wanted a confidence boost so you looked for someone 13 years younger who’s a bit of a nutter
    a distraction from the problems at home with your girl
    to make YOU feel good
    i’m sick of men like you
    that come into my life
    coz i have to tell them my past so they know just in case i break down and do something stupid. you know i was emotionally unstable and vulnerable, you still thought it was ok to stick your dick in me then go home to her..
    and we wonder why there are so many girls out there with eating disorders, self harming, bottling everything up and in danger in domestic relationships, so many in this world…it’s because of men like you
    men that care about their cock and their status
    that don’t see that women are the most beautiful creatures in this world. Were like expensive antique vases, beautiful but fragile when pushed.

    I’m just getting sick of this now…I’m just sick of letting people into my life for them to just fuck me over…again and again…and then i think i’ve met somebody nice, and they promise me they care…and they don’t because they always just find a way to hurt…I give up…I’m shutting down…Fuck this shit man…

    Dont come running when your mrs gives you trouble
    hit the road jack

    One Response to hit the road jack

    1. Sister
      July 3, 2011 at 12:38 pm

      You’re not alone, sweetie. I’ve been used and abused so many times. Men don’t think with their head. (Well, at least not the right one, anyway). I know it’s hard. I know it sucks. I know how lonely it can be when all you want is a text, an email, a phone call from him. Anything to let you know that you’re on his mind (even if it’s for just a second). Please remember that it will eventually stop hurting. Eventually, it won’t suck as much as it does now. I promise. In the meantime, keep your chin up. And take comfort in knowing you’re not alone. I’m right there with you. Wishing he’d call or text….

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