• And Again.

    by  • July 1, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 1 Comment

    so…. here we are again… sad, angry, worthless, you name it. neither of us can seem to hold up a good mood for more than a few minutes, and we haven’t gone a day without one of us crying for as long as i can remember. so you get the picture, life sucks.

    i must have said this so many times already, but i just want to die. this horrible nasty feeling i have inside if literally consuming the rest of my life. my girlfriend hates me by now, all of my friends are distant memories. except for you. my best friend, and the girl that i am in love with.

    i know things really suck right now. at least for me they’re at an all time low. i would do anything to see your real smile, because from what i know about the past six months, its all been fake.

    while i was writing this i spent the entire time thinking of how much i want to hurt myself. but i can’t. because i promised i wouldn’t. because i promised that i would live through this. no matter what.

    so we find ourselves here in the deadly cycle. love, “sex,” and then the ever so popular depression.

    so… here we go again.

    One Response to And Again.

    1. Jessica
      July 1, 2011 at 9:27 am

      It hasn’t all been fake and you should know that. You’re my best friend, I know you better than anyone, and the fact that I went to this website at the exact moment this posted should say something to you. Just please don’t give up quite yet. One way or another we’ll both end up happy. I love you.

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