i know we just met a few weeks ago, but i cant stop asking myself why. why did you choose me out of all the other girls? why did you stay after and talk to me? why did you ask for my number? why did you hang out with me? why did you have sex with me? why don’t you talk to me anymore? did you really just use me? in a matter of weeks you had me. i promised myself i wasn’t going to do this. i didn’t want this. you came in out of nowhere and swept me off my feet. why do you treat me like shit? you used me. never before had i let someone in. i opened myself up and let you in. you killed me inside. i think i may have loved you. you couldnt give a rats ass about me. i feel so STUPID! i need someone right now to tell me it will all be okay. i need you to treat me right. i am a human, with feelings. and all i feel now is pain. i think i deserve better.. i hate that i have to see you everyday and you act like nothing is wrong. i wish i could be stronger. i wish i had the guts to tell you what im feeling. but instead, i put on a happy face and move on… i just need help…
ps. i promise myself i will never make this mistake again. i will NOT be a stupid girl.