• Wanting You

    by  • June 30, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Wish • 1 Comment

    It isn’t that I don’t care for you anymore. It’s just that I’m finally trusting Him. I know that whatever He decides will be best for both of us. He gives good things. He gives the best. I know that if you and I are meant to be, then He will make it happen. I have to try to take my heart back. This is so hard. I don’t know if I can really take my heart back. But I’ve decided to be happy. I will always care for you. I guess the difference now is that I know He will choose what’s best for me. I’ve told Him how I feel about you. But what He chooses is best. I should’ve done this a long time ago. It would’ve saved us so much pain. My feelings for you are the same. But I’m putting them aside. I have to wait for Him to give you to me. The scary thing is that He may not. He may not give you to me. That’s so scary. But He will make it better again by giving both you and I something/someone better. I trust Him. It’s not without personal sacrifice that I trust Him. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. So, know that it wasn’t hard to like you and it’d be so easy to choose you. But I don’t do things because they’re easy. I do things because they’re right. I do what I think is right. Even if God never gave me anything again, I would still owe Him this. But I have the good fortune of being able to say that He will give me His very best when I obey Him.

    One Response to Wanting You

    1. hope
      July 1, 2011 at 10:46 am

      Trusting Him is truly hard, and I am encouraged by your willingness to let Him have control. May He bless you for your obedience.

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