• I’m sorry.

    by  • June 30, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Goodbye • 2 Comments

    I am so, so sorry. I lied when I told you I loved you. Really, I just want you. I want to you to stay with me. I want you to cuddle with me on my futon while we watch the endless list of movies you want me to watch. I want you to look me in the eyes and say cute things. I want you to kiss me on the forehead, then my nose, then my lips. I want you to want me. I want you to love me, even though I know I don’t love you back. You make me feel good- wanted, loved. So I just say that I love you back, to make you feel the same, but in all honesty, I stopped caring about everything a long while back. It’s hard to care about someone when all you’ve ever known was to distance yourself to avoid being hurt.

    I lied when I told you I’d never leave you. I lied when I told you I’d never hurt you.

    I’m sorry that I am so selfish. I’m sorry that I still plan to kill myself even though I know it will destroy you.

    2 Responses to I’m sorry.

    1. Rin
      July 1, 2011 at 6:19 am

      Please please PLEASE don’t kill yourself. Suicide is NOT the answer. Obviously you have someone who loves you very much, and if that person does, I’m sure there are others! If you tell these people about your problems they can help you. Even seeing a therapist can help. Just don’t kill yourself…If not for yourself, then to spare those who care about you.

    2. kara
      July 1, 2011 at 7:47 pm

      Please don’t. 🙁 I don’t know you, but I still care. Please don’t.

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