It’s been a while. It seems like I don’t know you anymore. I miss you. I miss your smile, your laugh. I miss the way you’d only look for the good, the positive. In everyone and everything that was lucky enough to catch your eyes for a moment. What happened to you? What have I done? Why won’t you look at me anymore? You deserve better than this. I’m sorry I’ve hurt you so. I know I can’t go back and change anything. I don’t want to. Not really. Because then where would we be? What would we know? How would we learn without our mistakes? How would our eyes be clear without the tears of yesterday? How would we get stronger without falling down, opening wounds new and old and giving our heart time to heal and scar? I want you to know I’ll do better. I keep saying I’m going to try but trying isn’t good enough anymore because we both know it’s bullshit. You are beautiful. You are strong. And we’re not doing this anymore. I’m sorry it took me so long to get to this point. I’m sorry I’ve abused and taken for granted the one real gift I’ve ever been given. You. This body, this life, is all I have. It’s the only thing that’s absolutely free. I won’t hurt you anymore. I’m ready to move on. I’m ready to laugh, smile, cry, love, hurt, bleed and fight for everything I truly believe in. I want you to know we’re gonna be okay, you and me. I love you. Please forgive me. I love you. I’m sorry. Forgive me. I love you.