• my baby

    by  • June 26, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Grief, Pets, Those Gone Before Us • 1 Comment

    Dear Charlie,

    You died a year ago today. Things still are not the same. I can still feel the pain and its almost as strong as the day you died. I thought time was supposed to heal these wounds. I still love you more than anything in the world. I cannot begin to express how much i truly miss you. At first i felt so alone. I could not stand to sit in this quiet house without your barking. Now i’ve gotten used to the fact that i’ll never have you here in this house with me again but at least i know that you live on in my heart. Nothing can break the bond that we have and the love that we share. Trust me baby boy, i’ll be in heaven with you one day. Ill be able to hold you and play with you again. I’ve been crying all night, and I know that’s not what you would want but i can’t help it. I miss seeing your face everyday. I miss everything about you. I still think about you all the time, wishing you were here with me. I would give anything in the world to bring you back down here just so i can cuddle with you again. I know God is taking care of you now. I know that you are in a better place, but that only makes the pain go away a little. You are my best friend and my little baby. No other dog will ever replace you, please know that. People may think it’s crazy to love a dog so much, but i don’t think it’s possible to love even a human more than i love you. You are so sweet and i miss having you next to me whenever i need someone to be there for me. Everyone loves you, it was hard for anyone who knew you to find out that you had passed. The night you passed away was one of the worst nights of my life. Just knowing that i could have prevented you from walking in that street is the worst thing in the world. My biggest regret is not have been giving you more attention and watching you so that you did not wander off. I pray you are having a good time in heaven with stashy bear. I know that you both love me more than anything, that’s what keeps me going. I will see you again one day Charlie bear, just know that i love you!

    Love, Mommy

    One Response to my baby

    1. M
      June 27, 2011 at 5:35 am

      I’m terribly sorry for your lose. I can emphasize your pain. I’m not too great with words but hopefully this comes out ok. My dog Chewy died last year in February after being hit by a car. She was/is my little sister. The lose was really difficult not just for me but for my whole family. The one thing that helps me is knowing that all though Chewy is no longer physically with me, the love she expressed will never fade. Love is constant. I’m grateful for the countless moments that I had her in my life. I’m sure that you feel the same way about Charlie. Every once in a while I feel her presence almost as though she’s checking in on me. I bet Charlie’s doing the same. I hope that Charlie and Chewy are watching out for each other and becoming good friends. I wish you all the best.

      Some one who understands

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