• I Need To Forget You

    by  • June 26, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Letting Go • 0 Comments

    I remember the first time I saw you.
    We were watching the Wizard of Oz in sixth grade band.
    I don’t know why you caught my eye, I wish you never did.
    We hardly talked, only looked at each other and smiled.
    It’s like we were afriad of what might happen, if we were actually friends.
    Flash forward, eighth grade formal.
    I remember you slow dancing with other girls, but you were looking at me.
    Now it’s ninth grade.
    We’re in the same homeroom, and in the same World History class.
    We spoke more, but I still wouldn’t have called us “friends”.
    April of tenth grade. Finally.
    The high school youth group from church went to camp out on an island for one night.
    We spoke to each other. We spoke a lot. I was happy. You were happy.
    I thought, maybe something will happen this summer.
    But it just got worse.
    I found out you asked a girl out. She said no. I was heart broken.
    I didn’t want to like someone who I didn’t really know anymore.
    I like someone else now. Who’s my friend, and I actually have his number.
    But I still can’t stop looking at you.
    I can’t help but feel jealous when I see you and your girlfriend together.
    Maybe because I had imagined it was me, for so long.
    I want to be able to stop thinking about you.
    I want to be able to stop looking at your facebook.
    It’s so hard to break the five year habit of liking you.
    I wish the habit had never began.

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