When were you going to tell me that you still have feelings for her? I told you I missed you, I had to get it out of my system. I wasn’t lying, I still miss you but there are times when I think, no, I know that you aren’t worth my time. I love you and you are one of my best friends but I cannot bring my self back to you. We can’t get back together.
Once I told you I missed you, you turned the world, the universe around for me. For me!! You said you would fix every thing, you’d be the best and you’d tell her you don’t like her any more. I was already on fence about going back to you, I was trying to follow my heart. But it just led me into a black pit that I can’t get out of.
Why? Oh yes, because you still like her. But did you tell me that you had feelings for her still? NO, you whined to one of our best friends! It hurts me a bit that you still like her, I thought she was a rebound and I still believe she might’ve been. But it hurts me even more that you didn’t tell me that you didn’t have feelings for her. I thought we told each other everything. I thought you trusted me with anything and everything! But you go on and talk to someone else about your crap and stop talking to me!! THATS WHAT HURTS THE MOST.
I understand you’re on your family FREAKING vacation and I’m sure you’re busy, HAH, only busy enough to text me two times. TWO TIMES, AND NO PHONE CALLS AT ALL? You used to call me EVERYDAY, so much it was MADDENING.
Even a small measly phone call and maybe an “I love you” might make me feel… less left out, less unloved.
Thats what it is. I feel unloved. But I’m not going to keep up with your crap any more. I AM NOT COMING BACK TO YOU. NO MATTER WHAT. EVEN IF IT MEANS CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT, BEING LONELY AND DEPRESSED. YOU ARE NOT WORTH MY LOVE OR MY TIME.