i’ve gotta say, i miss you quite a bit. i’m so sorry for not being there for you. i can no longer be the first person you go to when things happen. we had an agreement, we wouldn’t talk after our breakup. i’m sorry i ended it so suddenly, nothing was wrong. but i could no longer hold you back. it’s slowly sinking in and i’m missing you. you’ve recently been popping up in my dreams and my mind more than usual. i hope you know, that although i may be harsh about this, i do love you with all of my heart still. i know we’d be going strong if it weren’t for our situation and religion, but we had no other choice. we were only holding each other back. like i said, i’m sorry i haven’t been responding to you, but we made an agreement. it’s clear that you still go to me when something happens, and that just shows we can’t stay friends. You’ll see in the future, it’s for the best….
….the thing i hate about this the most, is that i know soon, you’ll fade completely and we’ll both be moved on. although that’s for the best, i don’t want that. i’d rather linger and know you’re still in love with me too….this is scary.
i hope everything is okay with you and your job. and THANK GOD u passed your exam i knew u could do it! best of luck to you. i wish you only the best, cuz you deserve nothing less than that.