I love watching movies. They are so incredibly entertaining to me. Maybe because I always feel like I can relate to one of the characters. Imagining what my life would be like if I was them. Truthfully, my life is not that exciting. I am responsible. I am going college. I have a job. I pay for my own shit. I have been 21 for almost 6 months now and I have been to 3 bars total. I tend to be on the shy side. Typical, american girl. I Grew up in a small town, and always knew what I wanted.
I’ve been in love before. My last relationship was a year and 7 months long and ended with him looking me in the eyes and telling me he didn’t know when the last time he even loved me was. He broke my heart. Oh well though, life goes on. I know I deserve better than him because I’ve had better.
I believe in soul mates. I believe I have found my soul mate. The first guy I ever loved, and love still today despite the fact we’ve both dated other people. The one thing I do not know is if we will end up together. He’s an incredible man, and I don’t want to hold him back. I just want him to be happy.
My expectations for a relationship are extremely high now. I don’t just want to date someone for fun anymore. I want something real. I want unconditional love, the kind I know I am capable of giving. Sometimes I think what I want is completely unrealistic. In all the romantic movies I watch, things always seem to work out with the characters. The love between them is always enough. But i’m not so sure that is real life. So after I watch these romantic movies I can’t help but think that there is no way that happens in real life. Sometimes love just isn’t enough, which I find incredibly depressing.