• Everyone makes mistakes…

    by  • June 25, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Guilt • 3 Comments

    Today, was the worst day of a 17 year old girl’s life. Today, I gave into peer pressure from a friend, and I shoplifted. And was caught.

    Don’t get me started, I know how stupid it was. I know. I understand.

    What I don’t get? Why everyone’s treating me like a whole different person. I made a mistake, I fessed up. My friend, she didn’t. The first thing I said when they brought me into the back of the store was “It’s not even worth it to me to try and lie, I did it.” and I proceeded to take the stuff from my purse.

    I don’t like being alienated now. I made a mistake. I’m going to fix it. I’ll go to court. I’ll plead guilty, apologize, and I’ll do whatever it is that I’m forced to to do. First offense, petty theft since it was under $500, and I’m a minor. It’ll be erased when I turn 18. But why do I feel so bad?

    God, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I’m gonna be such a good person after all of this, I promise. This isn’t like me, I’m a good kid. Just, let everything be alright. Just, let me live my shame and be done with it. I apologize for my sins, and I wish for forgiveness.

    Life will go on.

    3 Responses to Everyone makes mistakes…

    1. Cami
      June 25, 2011 at 10:55 pm

      That’s what sin is like.
      Give it one little space, and it takes you much further than you wanted to go, and leaves you with guilt and shame.

      I admire how you are so honest.
      Thank you for being honest.

      Yes I agree, they shouldn’t treat you so differently like that – we all make mistakes. And to God, no sin is worse than the other – they’re all still sin, and sin is bad.
      But God will forgive you. Not just for that, but for everything.
      He won’t deceive you. If you confess your sins and ask Him for forgiveness, He WILL forgive you.
      He died for that.

      “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness”. – 1 John 1: 9.

      “Or which one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!” – Matthew 7: 9-11

      “For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” – Romans 5: 7-8

      God will forgive you.
      Everything will be alright.


    2. Bizzle
      June 26, 2011 at 12:00 am

      Don’t worry…the guilt will fade, and people will forget. I got caught shoplifting once, and no one knew but my mom and I and a priest I told in confession. I was alone, and I was having a really horrible day. When I tried to check out with the cheap jewelry I had picked up at Macy’s, the snotty clerk told me she didn’t check out “costume jewelry” at her counter. So…I walked around to find another clerk who could check me out. I waited around for probably a half an hour and I checked with a couple other clerks in different departments to see if I could check out with them. Alas, I couldn’t find anyone to help, even though the “no costume jewelry” lady was busy doing absolutely nothing. I got tired of waiting and walked around slipping pieces of costume jewelry in my bag with my other purchases. I didn’t know I was being watched. Not that it’s any excuse that I couldn’t find someone to check me out, but I was really having a bad day, and I was insulted by the snotty clerk, and annoyed at the lack of customer service. I was ready to go, but not without the things I wanted to buy. I got caught. I felt TERRIBLE. I imagine you wouldn’t feel this bad had you not been caught. I think I would not have felt as bad as I did about it had I gotten away with it. Just count it as a blessing that you got caught. If you hadn’t gotten caught, you may have been headed for a turbulent road of snowballing petty crime. I think that life has it’s own way of working things out for us. I’m not a religious person so I can’t say God will help you because I don’t necessarily believe there is one. I think that if you’re a good person and you’re meant to be a good person, your destiny will help nudge you back on course should you go astray once in a while.

    3. hi
      June 26, 2011 at 12:53 am

      at least you learned your lesson with the law….its better then a dui

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