I´m so sorry. I know it would break your heart knowing how i feel. But I cannot battle this any more. It’s been too long, and I’ve fallen too deep. I know you need me, I know I’m loved and that you do care, but I can only live for myself.
I´m abroad. Alone. I know I said it was to experience the world on my own, but the truth is I did it too see if I could be alone and not depend on others to make me happy. Turns out, I can’t. I’m not strong enough.
I know I promised you to help out at home, bring the kids up and try to fill the void dad left. But I can’t. I’ll never be half the person he was. I’m sorry.
I wish I could have your strength, dad’s persistence, my brother’s talent, my friend’s confidence and my little sister’s love for the world.
I know I must go on, fight this fight, face my demons and whatever. I just don’t want to. I would have been a good psychologist – but if I can’t help myself, how on earth would I be able to help others?
The reason I can’t send this to you is that I honestly don’t want you to worry dear mom. The only thing I want you to know is that I am proud to be your daughter, you are the best person I know and thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for everything. I want you to be happy. And at last, I am sorry.