One of your best aspects is your level head, but now I’m wondering if you’re sane. What’s happened to you? You sound naively and pathetically in love and I don’t think I’ve done anything to produce this. Yes, I do love you, but apparently not as much as you love me. Marry you? Not before I’ve lived! I know it sounds hateful as if I would have to settle. Let me live first! Years may sound like an eternity, but they can pass in the blink of an eye. Let me go. You need to because whether or not you’re prepared, I’m going. I will come back and I will understand if you’re not there waiting for me, but then and only after I go will I be able to love you with no reservations, no settling. You are the best I can ever hope for and dream about, you are exactly what I want, but I need to be me first. I need to chase my own dreams. I will be a better spouse, friend, daughter, sister, person for it. I love you.