• What You Need To Hear.

    by  • June 23, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Those Gone Before Us • 0 Comments

    Andrew Kellow H.
    6-18-1992 / 8-23-2010

    I know that you are not going to read this, unless you have internet access in Heaven…one can only hope. I miss you so much it’s crazy. 10 months ago, today, I lost my best friend, and my boyfriend. You were the person I knew I could turn to with any problem I might be having. You were here for me when I needed you the most and I will forever be grateful of what we shared. You weren’t just a boyfriend, or a best friend. You were a part of me, and you forever will be.

    Every moment I spent with you was full of laughter. I had a smile on my face whenever you were around. Butterflies filled my stomach when you were around. We were perfect for each other. You kept me in check. Made sure I was doing alright. I made you have fun when you needed it. I made sure you remembered the little things, because we both know I never forgot anything. We were what each other needed and now you’re gone.

    I know that you’re not going to be coming back. I’m going to have to wait to see you again…and I know that I’m going to be waiting a long time for that to happen. However, I know where you are. I know you’re in a good place. I know that this place you’re in, is the place you’ve been looking forward to going ever since you were able to read. God needed you for some reason, and the only thing I can hope for is that you are happy.

    I am trying to be strong down here without you. It’s hard and everyday is a new challenge, but I’m getting along without you. I still catch myself trying to call you and tell you how my day went, or texting you goodnight. I still look up at the stars and think of you, wondering if you’re looking at them too. Sometimes I think that you’re lighting them up for me because you know how much I love looking at them. It is a comfort to see them lighting up the sky before I fall asleep.

    You are so missed by many. I will never forget you and you will ALWAYS be in my heart. I will carry on your memory with me throughout my life. Your memory is going to be cherished for as long as I am alive. I hope you are doing well, and hey, maybe you’ll be able to read this and know that I am thinking about you.

    Just know that I am doing well. Know that I am okay. Know that I miss you more than anything and that I love you with all my heart. Know that when I see you, you had better be prepared for the biggest and longest hug you’ve ever experienced. I miss you, baby. See you soon.

    Love always,
    Peyton McKenzie W.

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