• Mistaken

    by  • June 23, 2011 • Heartbreak • 0 Comments

    Dear Jesse,

    you are such a piece of fucking shit. we dated on and off for two years, from when i was 15-17, you were a year older than me. I lost my virginity to you, at the age of 15. I was so, naive. People say at my age, 18, I’m too young to know what love is and what it feels like, but they don’t know how hard I fell for you. You told me you loved me, i fell for it. I loved you too, i still do. Why did you have to cheat on me? please tell me? not just once, or twice, but three times?! Yes I know i’m an idiot for coming back to you every time, but i gave you such a hugeee piece of me that I cannot let go. it’s been over 8 months since we broke up, but i’m still not over you. I think about you everyday. I would still go back to you if you asked, which I know is so, completely wrong, but I can’t help the way that I feel. I’m sick of my friends and family telling me I didn’t love you, it was just ‘puppy love’ but it wasn’t, it was true love. I miss you so much. I would kill to fall asleep with you again, spend our summers together 24/7, talk on the phone for hours about random stuff all night. the passion between us was amazing. but what happened? why don’t you want me? why wasn’t i good enough for you? for you to cheat on me, and not even care was so incredibly wrong. i am sobbing as i write this. you will never know the pain that i still feel to this day, the pain that you have caused me to feel. the pain that i cannot get to go away. i can’t get over you. i want to stop hurting, but at the same time, i’m GLAD I DO HURT. because it’s the only way that i know it was real…

    Thank you for hurting me, and tearing me apart. but thank you for showing me what love is like, and what it’s like to care about someone..

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