I’m so happy in your arms. When you’re with me, everything is okay. No, it’s better than okay, because nothing else matters with you by my side.
But when you aren’t there… I get scared, I get lonely. I start remembering things that happened before you… and I start to miss him. Because yes, I love you, but there’s some kind of love left over for him… You don’t know about him, just that I loved him once. You don’t know I still talk to him. You don’t know that he calls me and we talk a while… You don’t know how if he were here… I couldn’t see him. Because if I saw him, I can’t promise I’d remember you.. I could end up throwing away everything we have for a few hours with him. Not because I love him more, quite the opposite… I don’t know why I’d do it, but I would. You know how I get frightened for us. This is why. I don’t know what to do, but I know I can’t lose you. I just can’t…
I love you. I love you. I love you.
And I’m sorry.