Lately, I find myself completely lost in my thoughts of you. I can’t stop myself from thinking about what could be between us, and what life would be like if we were together. I know that this is the wrong thing to do considering you’ve already told me you don’t want it that way, but the thought just won’t. go. away. It’s so frustrating to try to suppress the thoughts and just have them creep right back up. You’re my best friend but no matter what i do I can’t help but want more.
I just want them to stop. I want the thoughts to go away. i want my body and mind to realize that we’re not meant for each other. We’re in high school; no one is meant for each other. Yet, I can’t get you out of my mind. I love you so damn much and i can’t make it go away.
I can’t even explain how angry I am that they just won’t go away.
I hate it…I hate it.I hate it.I hate it.I hate it.I hate it.
Just go away. Please…