You always tell me how much I scare you, and ask if I’m scared, too. I always tell you, “No,” when really I am shaking uncontrollably on the inside. The fact of the matter is, I AM terrified of this new situation.
It seemed like just yesterday we were only co-workers. No feelings that we would ever dare to admit because I was with him, and you ARE with her. When my boyfriend and I broke up, you were right there to catch me as I was falling. You made it so easy to forget about him, to smile, to be happy to be alive because of just being you. My fondness for you now gets deeper and stronger everyday. But the situation that you’re in…the fact that you are still living with your girlfriend…scares me to no end. I can only hope that you will follow through with your word and leave her. I deserve to be your only one, and you know it. I would do anything to make you happy. My heart hurts to see you hurting. To see you in pain. I’d go to the ends of the Earth to make you smile and forget about the hardships of life for a while. But YOU need to put things to an end with her before we can go on any further. You owe it to me, and yourself to walk away from her. I know it’s God’s will for whatever happens, but I’m hoping he is a little in my favor because I don’t know how I would handle losing you.