You were the one person I couldn’t lose. And I have. You love her and I’m so glad that being with her makes you so happy. But where does that leave me? I can’t be the best friend who is in love you. I can’t do that anymore. I can’t always tell you how I feel and just sit around and wait for the day where you “might” decide to reciprocate your feelings.
But even as I said “we can’t talk anymore”, I was bluffing. How stupid I was to do that. I could of just loved you from afar. I could of. But the reality of the situation is that I can’t. You’ll never love me. You took my bluff and said you understood. That stung more than any pain I’ve ever felt. And so there. I’ve lost you. With a few clicks of my keyboard. So fast and so easy.
I don’t know what I ever meant to you but you were my air. So how the hell am I supposed to breathe now?
I’ll do what I’ve always done. Disregard my feelings. You are what matters. And you’re happy.
But this is the last time I will wear my heart upon my sleeves for daws to peck at. The last. Never again will I easily come to love someone.
Live happy, Dakoda. For me.
I love you. I will always love you until I just don’t anymore. And for the sake of my heart I hope it’s soon and I hope it’s permanent.