• Things I need to say

    by  • June 22, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Gratitude • 0 Comments

    Their are plenty of things I will never say to you. Plenty of things that are just to hard too make you understand.

    How many times I have imagined you just knowing all the things that I want to tell you? I have so much love in my heart but I am so afraid that you won’t feel the same. This isn’t like one of those stupid high school love posts but real deep stronger than I will ever feel again. You are everything I have only ever dreamed of and sometimes I like to pretend you feel the same.

    I know you don’t feel the same we only really met for such a short time but every time I think of the two weeks that I got to know you well I fall deeper in love with you.

    I will never tell you about all of the times that I cut myself because I was being self-fish or because I couldn’t stop. I wasn’t doing it to be in trend or because I wanted attention I did it because I wanted to be alone. To push away everything that loved me. I succeeded and every time I think of those two terrible years I just think of how much I wish I could tel you.

    I want to tell you that you are one of the closest friends that I have ever had and I wish that we talked more . I just don’t want to intrude on your life. It would be to much to ask…

    I wish that I could say that your voice is amazing and that your musical skills are divine. I just know that I would be to shy to ever speak my mind.

    I am worried that if life continues the way that is has been going I will never get to see you again. Most f all one of the things I will never say is that you have influenced me for the better in so many ways that I could never repay you for all that you have done.

    The last thing I will never say is thank you so much for changing me in a better way.

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