Everything Happens For A Reason…..
Or so people keep on saying. I like to believe it but if that’s the case I struggle to see what a lot of those reasons are.
Life has it’s ups and downs but a lot of the time I feel I hit a lot of downs… maybe they’re just hurdles thrown in our path to help make us stronger but how strong can one person be before they break?
I’m 25 and I seem to lose everything and everyone around me.
Just like my dad when I was 17.
He wasn’t around much but I always dreamt of the day he’d give me away when I got married, when he’d meet my children, when we’d form that close bond
we’ll now never have. Now he’s gone… I swear he’s with me a lot of the time but maybe it just a comfort thing?
What possibly could be the reason for this?
5 good friends all in separate cruel acts of ‘fate’ if that’s what you want to call it. All my age. Good people. How can there be a reason for this?
My first ever love.
The one person I truly believe was my soul mate and I messed it up. Lost him. For good.
I’ve learnt from those mistakes but why did they happen in the first place?
I was once close to my grandparents who brought me up and now we barely have a relationship. I love them both soooooo much but seem to have alienated them. Where did it all go wrong?
After working away for 12 months I have returned home to live my mother only to find out whilst I was away she tried to take her own life? Why?
How can things be so bad? Why would you want to leave your two children on their own? I just don’t understand. I can’t understand?
Everyone on the outside thinks I’m a strong, confident person.
Externally I am….
Internally I am not.
I have days where I feel so alone, where I feel I have noone to turn to, noone to try and help me with these answers…
are there even any answers to be given?
Everything happens for a reason.
I hope someday somebody proves that and then it will all make sense x