• Everything happens for a reason?

    by  • June 22, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Thoughts • 0 Comments

    Everything Happens For A Reason…..

    Or so people keep on saying. I like to believe it but if that’s the case I struggle to see what a lot of those reasons are.

    Life has it’s ups and downs but a lot of the time I feel I hit a lot of downs… maybe they’re just hurdles thrown in our path to help make us stronger but how strong can one person be before they break?

    I’m 25 and I seem to lose everything and everyone around me.

    Just like my dad when I was 17.
    He wasn’t around much but I always dreamt of the day he’d give me away when I got married, when he’d meet my children, when we’d form that close bond

    we’ll now never have. Now he’s gone… I swear he’s with me a lot of the time but maybe it just a comfort thing?
    What possibly could be the reason for this?

    5 good friends all in separate cruel acts of ‘fate’ if that’s what you want to call it. All my age. Good people. How can there be a reason for this?

    My first ever love.
    The one person I truly believe was my soul mate and I messed it up. Lost him. For good.
    I’ve learnt from those mistakes but why did they happen in the first place?

    I was once close to my grandparents who brought me up and now we barely have a relationship. I love them both soooooo much but seem to have alienated them. Where did it all go wrong?

    After working away for 12 months I have returned home to live my mother only to find out whilst I was away she tried to take her own life? Why?
    How can things be so bad? Why would you want to leave your two children on their own? I just don’t understand. I can’t understand?

    Everyone on the outside thinks I’m a strong, confident person.
    Externally I am….
    Internally I am not.
    I have days where I feel so alone, where I feel I have noone to turn to, noone to try and help me with these answers…
    are there even any answers to be given?

    Everything happens for a reason.
    I hope someday somebody proves that and then it will all make sense x

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