• The L-Word

    by  • June 21, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 0 Comments

    What does it mean to be in a successful relationship anymore? 50% of marriages fail nowadays and even more relationships do too, but I don’t even need to look large scale, I can look into my past. Most of my past relationships never even sparked anything on my end. I have been called “The One” by enough of my exes that it makes me question: “If I really am the one for all of them why haven’t I found my one?”

    Well that is not entirely true now, there was one, an especially special one and I write this to you. We hardly knew each other but seemed to connect so fast that I got swept off my feet. Each date with you seemed to make me fall for you even more. I will never drop the L bomb but I was damned close. College called us both away and we promised we’d wait for each other. Like a fool I believed that this was a promise we’d both keep. Well I did on my end, but the same can not be said for you. You forgot about me, and every time I attempted to Reach you it seems the message never got through. You were my one shot at anything resembling that L-word. Everyone else I can just mark off as a “close- friendship.”

    I don’t like to think of myself as guarded, I tend to be very open and social. All it took was me giving a piece of my heart away to someone who ended up shitting on it to go into full nuclear-bunker mode. I am closed up tighter then a clam, and thanks to you nothing is ever going to get near my heart.

    So what now makes me any different than a robot. I will never feel love like that, so is all that is left suffering pain anguish or just being content? -Sounds like a blast to me- Thanks for stealing my chance at happiness because it made me realize I did the same to all those others. Now I will carry on to make sure they at least get some spark of happiness.

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