I know that, four years ago, I broke your heart. No one has ever loved me the way that you did then. I just wasn’t ready for it… I think I was scared of how much you cared, how much you’d do for me, how it was all too good to actually be real. We were best friends before we were together, and I am sorry that I let that go.
I am so happy that now, after all this time, you are back in my life. It’s amazing how after so much time, and how much we have both changed, the chemistry, attraction, the friendship, is all still there. The times that I am with you it doesn’t even seem real. Waking up next to you the other morning literally made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. It’s just hard, because we both need to figure out what we want in life. As much as I want to be with you, I also need to decide what I want first! Though right now I am pretty sure that even being with you I could be or do whatever I wanted, and things would work out just fine. I feel like in my single life I have complete freedom, and being with you I would not be sacrificing that. You let me be me. And I love that.
To be honest, I don’t even know if you want to be with me. Obviously you are attracted to me, but do you feel more than that? I feel like you do, but I doubt whether anything can be this perfect. You are the only guy that I have not wanted to change or control in any way… you are perfect, and I want to be with exactly who you are. That right there tells me that what we have is real. Do you feel it too?
No matter how practical I am trying to be or how much I know that the timing right now sucks, I can’t deny that my heart is completely yours. I am crazy about you, I let my guard down… and I am entirely in love with you. I guess it’s fair that now you have the chance to break my heart now, considering what happened before. I just know how great we are, how amazing a life together could be. It’s up to you now. And just so you know, as rough as it is not knowing how you feel, I love feeling this way… emotions this strong don’t come around all the time, so thank you for waking up my soul.