• Why can’t I see

    by  • June 20, 2011 • Addiction, Help, Sex • 3 Comments

    Why can’t I see the things that are so wrong with me? Why am I blind to the truth? I am 32 and beyond bankrupt. I am addicted to porn and masturbation and spend my parents money on cocaine to sit in front of my computer and look at porn for hours jerking off. I cannot stop drinking alcohol. I have 3 dui’s, no license and no money. I don’t go into work because I am too hung over. When I drink I steal. I have no friends. I lie about EVERYTHING. I lost 10,000 gambling and I have no money in the first place. I jerk off 8 times a day. I’ve jerked off at least 4 times a day every day for the last 5 years. I hate myself. Why can’t I change? I am OBSESSED with big tits. I made up a fake facebook profile so i could friend request this girl I am in love with and see her pictures. I am a good looking guy with a good body but I would rather look at porn than have sex with girls. My sister overdosed on drugs and alcohol in January. I used to spy on girls when they took showers. I’m such a weirdo and I hate it. Why can’t I be fucking NORMAL!? I don’t want to drink. I don’t want to do drugs. I don’t want to jerk off for hours ANYMORE! Please god please help me please please please. My life is falling apart. I am crying out to you, my lord, please help me. Please remove the desire to do drugs and drink and look at porn. Please please please. I am begging you. I am crying out, my lord. Please hear my prayer, my lord. Please

    3 Responses to Why can’t I see

    1. SD
      June 23, 2011 at 12:57 pm

      In Sexaholics Anonymous(SA) meetings, you will find others who have the exact same problem that rules your life. They’ll understand you, and best of all, they will love you even if you can’t love yourself. I’ve seen it work for many people. There’s a number in the the yellow pages where you live. Call it. An SA member will return your phone call and it will be THE call you have waited and prayed for. I am praying for you.

    2. Anon
      June 23, 2011 at 4:22 pm

      Agreed. You CAN have a sex addiction– it’s not made-up, and it’s not an exaggeration. It’s a real problem, there are others like you out there, and–most importantly– YOU CAN GET HELP.

    3. Kat
      November 25, 2011 at 12:32 am

      Best of luck. I hope you found some help.

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