• What Happened?

    by  • June 20, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Sorry • 0 Comments

    A year ago, you were nothing short of an obsession. A year ago, you were everything I wanted. A year ago, I could not imagine my life without you and quite simply needed you. What happened? When I was first trying to knock through your emotional walls and see into who you really were, was an adventure to say the least. And I was happy to chase after you. I know you liked me but you were scared because you’ve been hurt in the past. I know this sounds like everyone’s story but I know you’re different, Kacie. I wished countless times that I could have you, needed you, yearned for you, and finally it happened. I got through to you somehow and before this point, it was a fantasy to be with you, a sort of unattainable dream I had. Finally you agreed that maybe I was safe and that you could see yourself with me. I finally got what I wanted, finally. And for the first 6 months or so I was completely and totally overjoyed. I had to hold my tongue so that I wouldn’t say something that would make you think I was going too fast. But something happened. Something was missing. I wish I could have been happy with you and I am so sorry I wasn’t enough for you. I hate myself for what I did to you, and I wish that I wanted you just a little bit more. I guess once I got what I wanted I figured out the chase was all I was looking for. I need to grow up. And for that I am sorry

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