I don’t know if it’s the Coronas talking or something internally within. Or else, it could be my heart and the Coronas adding fuel to the actual delivery of this letter. Either way, what’s needed to be said will be typed within in the next few types and spaces.
Listening to Mendelsshon on Pandora tonight had me thinking. I fucking love you, Chris. You are so compassionate and right in all kinds of areas. Your choice of music is pretty much identical to mine, your fundamental structure as a human being is identical, and your career choice is complimentary to mine as well. You want to be a trombone / theory professor I presume. While I on the other hand, I want to be a concert pianist / piano teacher. We would have such a happy life together.
I sent you a text 2 or so week ago mentioning how I missed you. I really want to send another one tonight, but that could be just an outspoken opinion formulated from the 3 Coronas I just inhaled. You’re beautiful inside and out. I could name so many positive things about you off the top of my head if I were forced or just truly cared enough. I wish you were next door again and we knew we were so compatibly at the time. I’m to the point where past experiences with certain people we’re both associated with don’t matter anymore. I could care less if “he” walked in on us being “happy” together. He’s a home wrecker what we’d be doing together is far from worst what his past entails. Yet, that doesn’t matter. What is important is I love you. Or as you texted back after I mentioned I missed you, “I <3 u." So cliche, but I know you meant it. You've said "I love you" to my face plenty of times. I don't know if it was ment the way it's meant now or in a friendship way, (doubt the latter), although, if you were within reach (town wise) I would drive to you and hug you and kiss you and love on you so hard because I'd mean it with my entire heart.
I miss you too entirely much. I anticipate our next meet. It will be more memorable than the last and the last prior to that. You are such a beautiful soul. Please, don't forget.
I love you.