I don’t want attention
by admin • April 28, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 3 Comments
I don’t know whether it’s the accutane, or the pot use, or the relationship i’m in that’s making me stressed, but i can’t get the nerve up to tell anyone about my suicidal thoughts or my depressed mood. I’m afraid if i tell any of my friends they’ll think i’m seeking attention, or if i tell my physician mom she’ll just prescribe me more drugs. I don’t want people to think of me as that crazy overreacting attention seeking kid.
So for now i’ll let my feelings bottle up until i need to tell someone. Until i reach that point where i’m certain i’m not just doing it for attention.
As someone who had gone through and still struggles with what you are dealing with, my advice would to find someone such as a school counselling or therapist to talk too. If this is not possible, call the suicide hotline 1-800-784-2433 or the talk hotline 1-800-273-8255. These numbers are free to call and are open at all times. http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html here is a website with other useful places to get help. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There are many people who feel the same as you. Talking about what you are going through really will help, bottling it up inside will only make it harder to deal with. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I wish the very best to you. Life is worth living, there are many people out there who love you and would be truly saddened if you left them. Keep your head up! Things really will get better
ive been there…talk to your doc. sometimes there are chemical imbalances in the brain that we cant control. its not your fault…and if your friends think you’re making this up for attention…get new friends. you deserve so much better.
ill be keepin you in my thoughts.
a friend
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