I don’t know whether it’s the accutane, or the pot use, or the relationship i’m in that’s making me stressed, but i can’t get the nerve up to tell anyone about my suicidal thoughts or my depressed mood. I’m afraid if i tell any of my friends they’ll think i’m seeking attention, or if i tell my physician mom she’ll just prescribe me more drugs. I don’t want people to think of me as that crazy overreacting attention seeking kid.
So for now i’ll let my feelings bottle up until i need to tell someone. Until i reach that point where i’m certain i’m not just doing it for attention.