I really dont know where to begin. There are so many things wrong with everything that i feel my self suffocating trying to figure out how to just survive. After having my heart broken in so many peaces that many are still lost, after being pushed into loneliness without having a choice, after feeling drowned in emotions and barely surviving them, i find myself again disappointed coz my happiness doesnt seem to last long.

I have tried to love everyone in my life so much, that they never feel lonely, alone, abandoned, so they would grow more cuz i believe that everything grows faster and better if its loved.

But somewhere there i have been alone myself, abandoned and very lonely. So i dont know what i did wrong.

Did i forget myself? Did everyone else forget me?

Or was i just never that much bog of a deal to be loved back. I really dont need much, i swear!! :S

Why, in such a big family, ive always felt like an outsider? WHy do i have to fight so much just to be myself!?

How does anyone have a right to judge and take but never to give and take criticism.

Why do I even have to ask these questions…………