Dearest husband,

I have stood beside you through everything and every step of the way you have beaten me down. I never was good enough for you. I wasn’t skinny enough, so I worked my hardest to lose weight. My hair wasn’t long enough, so even though I didn’t want to, I grew it out for you. I spent too much time with friends, so I stopped seeing them. I was too innocent, so you worked on helping me fix that. I needed to grow up, I did. The list goes on and on. But even after everything I have done for you, it’s still not good enough. I’m not good enough. You took away all self-esteem that I had. You made me hate myself. And I just wanted you to know, that it is also because of you that I have contemplated suicide many times. But as you have pointed out, I’m not a very brave person, but I’m working on that too. And one day I’ll be brave enough to go through with it. Maybe then you will be happy with me.