Spoken words will never reach the level of pain for all those unsaid words sent into the void…never reaching the end.

Words like adding a star into the sky, each word another one. One of millions with nobody able to ever form the right sentences anymore.

Unspoken words because they are nothing but an echo of so many times they have been said.

Choices.

I feel, that I have lost my voice. No more words only action can heal and steal the pain away.

You your life, which in essence, is so much more important than mine…and me my life, to find a few more glimpses of happiness along the way that I have chosen. Never wanted to be important but to you anyway.

Words I leave unsaid, unsaid, because I said them all …like seeds in a dessert, nothing grew but your oasis blooming like paradise. I am happy for you and that, in some small part, I may have contributed to this lusciousness. You are the paradise, you are a beautiful soul, you are a gift even in your faults you are (yes, I see them just about all!), you are everything I dare not even dreamed of. The only really bad fault of yours is that you are not mine, and choose for it to be this way.

May you be happy.. always and forever, may true love never leave your side, may you find satisfaction in knowing that true love never will & and may you never look back in regret to what ifs.

I won’t because I lost my voice trying my best ……… I guess I fulfilled my purpose and the voice of reason will, one day (I hope), come to me.

What is true never dies, know that…like I know, I must have been wrong all along even though I feel you are the one that completes me in all the wrongness. Body, soul and spirit tell me so…*laughs* but what do I know? I am just one of those tiny dots in the sky trying to find my place.

3/14/11
I feel sick and fuzzy
My life is a wreck
I feel like I am losing ground
I have no more strength to give
Right this moment and for a while now
I have been anything BUT

Strong & Brave

…yet I have to be always, have to be always, have to be always, have to be
…guess somehow I always will be

My letter never sent, what for anyway?
Silence and action my only friends.

If by accident you should read this (chance I win the lottery is greater) PLEASE,
PLEASE let me be and don’t say another word.
Words are for nothing anymore when all I need are your arms around me, literally.

Farewell letters never sent and may everybody’s happiness be just around the corner.