I’m fighting to hold on…but when you left this world a huge part of me left with you. I will always love you darling…you were only 16 for goddsakes. It should have been me who left….not you. I can’t get over this. I’m sorry….I was strong for a long time but I’m not anymore. There just doesn’t seem any reason to be…I was your mother…that was who I was and who you needed me to be. And I’m not a very good actor anymore. Everything just hurts. I hope you don’t see this because I know it would upset you and I don’t want that. I just want to see you again.