You are being so absolutely stupid!! You are way better than this guy. You are way more than this guy. I don’t know if you are still with him because you are feeling bad about yourself. I don’t know if you are with him because he genuinely makes you feel happy when times are “good”. Do you not realize that he is making you crazy? He is verbally and emotionally abusive. Do you want to spend the rest of your life with a guy who calls you a “dirty cunt dyke”? I understand that you have much in common, but this is no excuse to put up with this asshole. I have an incredibly bad feeling about this dude, and the more you tell me, the scarier it gets. I’m afraid he’s going to absorb into his world, control you, and take you away from everything you love. He criticized your company, friends, and modeling career, yet you love him? I hope this is just a phase.