You need to let go. Of yourself, your fear, and the little insecurities that you hold so close to home. You need to realize that you have friends, potential lovers, and the prospect of a good life. You need to realize that everything that was said and done was because he was drunk, and whether or not he meant them aside, the things he said shouldn’t effect you as an adult now. You need to grow up a little and learn to deal with things and move past them. If you don’t you are going to feel alone for the rest of your life, just as you do now.
I wish I could say with love, but we aren’t there yet.