Love. That’s what you fell into…. then fell out of. With me. OF ALL PEOPLE! I felt it too! Love. It’s what I’m in with you. AND YOU KNOW IT! But…. You want us to take a break. Ok, that’s fine. But it’s killing me on the inside. I miss you. I want you back, and I don’t care if that means we’ll only Hug until you’re comfortable with Kissing…. Kissing until your wanting more. I want you…. I accept you.
I wish I could tell you exactly what’s on my mind… But I’m afraid I might seem desperate. You said we probably won’t be getting back together any time soon. I realized that, I don’t like it but I realized it. I’m working on things. I’m figuring things out. You don’t know it yet, but things can be the way they were. Bliss. Joy. Happiness (because there is definitely a difference). Love (this one, you can take your time with). Fireworks (Let’s light the ones that were saved).
I’m not asking for you to promise marriage, that’s to much and we’re only in high school. I’m asking for us to try us again; for the “we” factor. I’ll make the effort. Will – Can – You?
And that’s what I’m worried about with you… *Silence*
Well, more that you’ll feel pressured by what I’m saying… which I DON’T WANT TO DO… I DON’T WANT TO PRESSURE YOU!
I don’t know. I just don’t know anymore. I’m doing my best. I’m trying really hard. I’ll do whatever it takes to have in my life as something other than a friend. Just let me know.
P.S. I love you. :/