• I’ve Been Lying

    by  • February 20, 2011 • Doubt, Fear, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning • 4 Comments


    I really love you but I feel like I’m too comfortable. I’ve been lying to you and it has been killing me every day.

    You have the sweetest smile I will ever see and the heart of gold. The bravery you’ve shown and the protection you’ve given me are the best I’ve ever had,

    but there’s a part of me that thinks he could do all these things and more. He is kind and forgiving, gracious and helpful, and never makes me feel like I’m the weak one. He makes me smile and tells me I’m beautiful.

    But because I don’t know if this will ever be possible to work out, I’m staying with you. That’s the only reason and I won’t ever be able to say it out loud. I’m just scared.

    4 Responses to I’ve Been Lying

    1. Hasu
      February 20, 2011 at 5:58 pm

      Don’t be weak and use others as a crutch.

    2. me
      February 21, 2011 at 8:38 am

      You are a terrible person, stop being a bad person and set things right because either way you will pay for it, you already are.

    3. Beenthere
      February 21, 2011 at 3:29 pm

      You are not an awful person, but you can’t let fear dictate the way you live your life. I just broke up with my fiance, who is a wonderful man, even though I was terrified. It will hurt, but its better than putting it off until you have a family and kids to split up…because lets face…you will eventually split.

    4. TheSame
      February 21, 2011 at 6:03 pm

      You’re not a terrible person.
      You’re scared.
      I’m the same.
      My boyfriend is a wonderful, wonderful man – but sometimes, no matter how wonderful, you have to leave – and take a leap of faith.
      I’m pretty sure that I’ll crash and burn. But at least I won’t be stuck in the mud.

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